Here is my undertaking: For one year, I commit to this blog. Every day, I will post a blog about my day: how someone's act of kindness has affected my life, how I have performed an act of kindness, and my thoughts about the perpetual struggle of positivity vs negativity
I wanted to start this blog to keep track of my progress towards positivity. Positivity is something that I've attained but, now, I must constantly strive to keep.
Now that I am positive, I can not even COUNT the ways it has changed my attitude AND my life for the better. I can't go back. There is NO WAY. I will fight tooth and nail to keep it. The disparity is that huge.
Today, and the other 364 will only be different because I will have some sort of permanent record keeping. I intend to use this blog to keep me on track... it is the first days after a significant change that everyone around you and the world seemingly, will want to change you back. I have to say NO, day in, and day out. And choose 'black'.
I've started the year in letting go. I've let go of someone I held very dear to me because I thought we were destined to be something more -- he gave me his word he would commit to me. And since he did not, then I can believe in my OWN STRENGTH, brush myself off, move forward, and appreciate that I'm not numbed, I am proud that I POSSESS AN OPEN HEART. I carry this as a lesson learned.