This is why there is so much emphasis to do the things you love.
When you love what you do, you exude love, and your life just falls in place.
I'm having such great difficulty finding what it is that I love - and I understand just how important it is.
But that's tangential. I'm here to discuss what I found to be illuminating when a friend of mine discussed getting heavily involved with Jujitsu and other forms of martial arts.
I think it's fine for the sake of getting in shape, but since there are a PLETHORA of other ways to get in shape, I would suggest something that doesn't chip away at one's belief system and snap judgment of people. How did we get from jujitsu to belief systems you ask? Well, it's simple really. By hearing the description of how the instructor teaches, he is in your ear and in your face, pushing the walls of your inhibitions down. He is yelling orders - orders of HIT HIM, reassuring to just go with it, hit harder, and to search for the vulnerability points, to exploit them, and so much more. If one is subjected to this training every day, it takes a certain conditioning that overrides one's humanity and softness that makes one able to love so freely and be trusting with the world.
Just know that if you engage in any kind of activity that forces you to forget about the individual, then it makes it so much harder to disengage from that, and to be able to be OPEN and to LOVE. Training of this caliber puts you in this intense mental state, and any intense mental state leaves an imprint that's hard to shake off. It's mentally exhausting to go from one to another. The same with acting a character that's mentally unstable or is hardened. When you go home, you'll have to make a conscious effort to shake it off. My question to anyone is, life is already riddled with complexities and challenges. Why make it harder for oneself to get along in the world? When a win-win situation can be created, create one.