My heart beating fast.
My mind focused on absolutely one thing.
The same scenes playing out over and over in my mind.
I felt like a textbook specimen, but there was absolutely nothing I could do.
I lost control. I smiled, and thought to myself, I can let this control me, or I can smile and let the chips fall where they may. I will keep my cool.
It was the most difficult thing to say that night, I'll be leaving now. But I was so much more proud for being able to.
But it's time to get acquainted with some hobbies again! :)